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For Such a Time as This

For Such a Time as This

I’ve always loved the story of Esther.  Here was a woman put in a powerful position with a strong commitment to her family and her faith.  She had so much courage.  I am in no way comparing myself to Esther but I think we can all relate to the last phrase of Esther 4:14- “for such a time as this”. This verse often comes to mind when I think about the different phases in my life.

On Monday a client I coach emailed me that she needed to take a break from training.  She has a few young children (one who is still waking up throughout the night to nurse) and following a training schedule was proving to be too much for her right now.  The very same day, a former client of mine emailed me to say that she would like to start back with training.  She had taken a few months off due to personal reasons and she was ready to get back into a regular running routine.  Both of these situations got me thinking about my own life and when I’ve been able to train and when I’ve needed to take a step back.

For Such a Time as This- Taking a Step Back

I remember when I had three young children (age 3 and under) and training was not on my radar at all.  I tried to get in a few easy miles a couple days a week but I was not following any plan.  I was running more for weight loss and a couple minutes of kid-free alone time.  I went at very random times because waking up early was not realistic.  Most of my 20’s were spent pregnant, nursing, and home with little ones.  Could I have run competitively during this time?  Sure, but the timing wasn’t right.  My kids needed me with them.  When I ran my first half marathon with my husband our youngest child was almost one.  After this race I completely caught the running bug and decided I wanted to qualify for the Boston Marathon.  I was able to qualify that fall but plans changed when I became pregnant with our fourth baby.  I was very anxious and tried to jump right back into training after our son was born.  I wanted to be that mom who could do it all.  I was nursing around the clock and waking up early to run.  Doing too much too soon led to a stress fracture and I was forced to take a break.  I found out I had a stress fracture the week before the Boston Marathon and I was devastated.  Looking back on this time I have to admit that this was the best thing that could have happened to me.  It forced me (because I’m stubborn like that) to slow down and take a break.  At the time I had 4 children (age 5 and under) and I did not need to be training for a marathon or any race for that matter.  I needed to be home with my new baby and other little ones.  I’m sure there are others who could handle it (and I’m not judging anyone!) but I know that for me personally it was too much and I needed to take a break.  After several months I started running again but with lower mileage and my expectations changed.

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2011

For Such a Time as This- Running to My Potential

Fast forward a few years and I find myself in another stage.  I have three kids in school and one in pre-k.  I’m working part-time outside the home and have a little more flexibility with my schedule.  I’m not waking up in the middle of the night with babies so running early is very doable.  While I’m not at all trying to qualify for the Olympic trials or anything like that I do consider myself a fairly competitive runner.  I love racing and pushing myself to be the best runner I can be.  In the back of my mind I know there will be a time when I cannot do this. This past weekend I turned 37.  I don’t feel that old but I know I’m not getting any younger!  Yesterday was my first track workout in a while.  I had 10 x 600m repeats.  While I was pushing myself and sprinting around the track I had my usual, “why am I doing this again?” moment.  I quickly reminded myself of a quote I saw years ago- “There will be a time when I can no longer do this.  Today is not that day.” I repeated this phrase to myself each time I made another lap.  This is where I am right now. I do not know where I’ll be in ten years or even next year but this is what I can do right now.

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2015

Wherever you find yourself whether it’s trying to juggle family, a job, or health issues- embrace it.  Make the most of it.  Set reasonable expectations and do the best you can with where you are right now.  If training for a marathon (or any race for that matter) is not realistic for you with your family / job demands then don’t pressure yourself to do it.  It’s really ok to take a step back. And as hard as it is, try not to compare yourself to others who are doing what you cannot.

If you find yourself at a time when you can push yourself then don’t be afraid to work hard.  It’s not always easy and sometimes you’ll have the “why am I doing this to myself?” moments but it is worth it.  Always give your best, “for such a time as this.”

 

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18 Comments

  1. This is exactly what I needed to hear! Thank you. I have 3 kids, the baby just turned one and is still nursing and waking at night. I have been beating myself up because I’m not back into running (I’ve done a few longer races, but I’m not even running 3 days a week right now), I also haven’t lost the baby weight yet which is so hard on my self esteem. I know that I am where I’m supposed to be, at home with my children and they are my first priority. But, I get down when I see women “doing it all”. I’m not that woman, I can’t function on 3 hours of sleep a night, I can’t diet much while nursing or my milk dries up. Anyway, sorry this was so long but thanks for putting into words what I have been feeling. And reminding me there will be a time in my life for running more.

    1. I understand right where you are Katie! It seemed like baby weight took longer to come off with each baby. You’ll get there but enjoy your time home with your little ones. There were many times I would remind myself that running would always be there but my babies were only babies for a season. Being sleep deprived just makes everything harder! I’m kind of glad Instagram wasn’t around when I was going through some of these times. It’s very tempting to get caught up comparing where we are and where we think we should be. Anyway, thanks for your comment and enjoy your sweet little ones!
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  2. I love your post, even if I can’t personally relate to it since I’m child free. I do occasionally beat myself up pretty badly about running and in the end this is something we all do for ourselves. We have to do the best we can each day and remember none of us are getting paid to run and our lives do not depend on it. So many people are quick to judge others when they don’t know what that person is dealing with outside of running and training, too.

    You’ve come so far over the years, even with the pregnancies and recoveries and injuries, and it gives me a lot of hope that I’ll be able to run for years to come.
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  3. Love love love this.

    Sometimes I get frustrated because non-runner friends or family members make comments about why i run so much and I should be doing XYZ etc etc. The thing is I have the time right now, my life allows me to train and attempt to race competitively. Yes I want to settle down with my guy and we want marriage and kids but it doesn’t mean that I have to sit around and wait for that. I will be GLAD to push training aside for working more, making a family, etc. But in the mean time what is so wrong about taking advantage of THIS time right here and now to do what I love and have the ability to pour myself into it.
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    1. Exactly!! Why not push yourself to be your best? Especially since you have the means (motivation, resources, time, health) right now. There may be a time when you don’t and we never know what the future holds so I say go for it! You have the talent and ability- why not use it! : )
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  4. There will be a day when I can no longer do this. TODAY IS NOT THAT DAY! This will be my mantra Saturday as I try and break an hour in my 10k race. Thank you for being such an inspiration!

      1. I got both A and B goals Tia! 59:07 time (sub-hour) and a 6:35 PR! Thanks again for your posts – I love reading them and find incredible inspiration!

  5. I love this post. I could have done with it when I was having health issues but still was trying to run as fast as I’d run previously. I learnt acceptance eventually but it wasn’t done with any degree of grace. I realised that just being able to run some days was such a gift – I don’t always have to be beating myself up to run faster if things are not aligning.
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